favorite things

ten reasons why i love colorado...

--afternoon thunderstorms
--aspen leaves rustling in the wind
--cool crisp mountain air
--natural beauty
--the rocky mountains
--blue skies
--sunsets on the lakes
--beautiful seasons
--wild flowers growing everywhere
--the endless list of activities and adventures

anyways...exciting things coming up. new job position at work, starting in september. close friends visiting in october. yeah, i am happy.















taken in estes park.
afternoon storm rolling in august 15th, 2010

oh monday. anyways, had a wonderful weekend with family. celebrated my dad's and niece's birthdays. celebrated my mom and dad's and aunt and uncle's anniversary. had family from out of twon with us. went to estes park, watched a sunset at lake loveland, took pictures, and ate good bbq and ice cream. great weekend.

now it is monday. i have my one year evaluation today.

here's an image from the weekend.














have a great week.

this post is about nothing really. just felt like posting something.

family is in town. that is fun. maybe go up to estes park tomorrow.

i want to go to summit county this weekend, or the next. take some pictures. enjoy the mountains in the summer.

friends may come visit early part of this fall. that makes me happy.

i want to go camping. in the mountains.

took my cats to the vet the other day. they were very unhappy about that.

paying student loans sucks.

have to work tonight.

very tired.

that's all.

the perfect balance

i find it interesting, how quickly time goes by. the days are becoming like the wink of an eye. the weeks are zipping by without a pause for breath. and the months....they are just flying by. it's already the first of august, yet, i feel like summer is just beginning.

at the beginning of the year i had a list things i wanted to do and accomplish. some i did, most i didn't. don't get me wrong, i am happy for things i did and accomplished and i cherish each moment of those things, yet i have a mingling sense of failure that i seem to not be able to shake. why is that? i do not know, but it is still attached to me. maybe because i am a perfectionist and i have to accomplish everything i put my mind to, and when my expectations aren't met, i blame myself.

don't get me wrong, when i say i am happy, i truly am. i finding more and more things that put a smile on my face and i love it. but i cannot help but think of the things 'that could have been', or the 'would ifs', or the 'maybe if i had just tried harder', and finally the most evil of them all...'why me/not me'. but i must admit now that i am stuck in a rut right now. i LOVE my family, LOVE my friends, even love my job....yet.....

i will figure it out soon, the perfect balance of contentment and yearning. and i can get my leaning soul into a more balanced state. i don't know how to put it in words. shoot, i don't even know the prescription, but somehow it will come into existence. i probably won't even notice the development or process of it considering the days have become like the blink of an eye. check back in another 4 months and maybe i will be standing straight. or sooner.

umm update.

umm wind....lots of wind.

umm allergies....lots of allergies.

umm laundry....mountains of laundry.

umm insomnia....no sleep last night.

umm work....lots of work lately.

umm pandora....loving pandora.

umm film....obsessing over and purchasing tons of film.

umm traveling....lots of traveling lately (march: LA, april: NYC, may: Wisconsin and Chicago, june: LA).

umm being lazy....spending time off from work watching old tv favorites. (reruns of boy meets world and friends).

hmmm....what else??? i think that pretty much sums up the past month.

why are things weird on here???

understanding quality

after my incredibly enjoyable trips to LA and NYC, i am dying to spend more time behind my lens. that being said, i have been studying up on 35mm professional film manuals and reviews. i never really paid much attention to the quality of the film i would select, just opting for the cheapest, yet fully understanding what the consequences would be....and many of my pictures reflect that. i always had a basic understanding of different films and different film speeds, but like i said, i would always opt for the cheapest options.

i really want to take more quality pictures and enjoy them afterwards. i am understanding more and more. (too bad all of it is ridiculously expensive...)