Entry No. 5

so, i officially suck at working out in the morning. i had planned to get up on tuesday morning and this morning to go workout at the pool and swim some. failed both times. tuesday morning i woke up and then just fell back asleep. and this morning i didn't even wake up in time. so go me on working out in the morning.

well, i started my new job on tuesday afternoon. i must say, it is definitely not the most exciting job on the planet. all i do is stuff envelope after envelope, and on and on for what seems like forever. we affectionally call it the monkey job. why, because you could hire a monkey to do same thing and he could do it. so that was tuesday afternoon.

after that me and michaela chatted for a bit. again, we were supposed to go workout but we got caught up in our conversations that we missed out on that. it was a good time of discussion and processing and enlightenment. it was like talking about things that i realized i was saying them, that is what i needed to do for myself. things to think about and consider for when i want to spend time considering what my future could be and what i want it to be. things like, what does it mean to be who we are meant to be and do we about it; or what does it mean to be a woman to myslef and to God and eventually to a man; how to deal with conflict or unexpected hardships; school and work and housing; our parents influence on our lives and what it means for us now; what it means to be a christian and so much more. we finished our conversation off with a pizza and then she headed home for bed, while i watched some friends then went to bed.

yesterday i got ready for work and texted my mom happy birthday. went to work at the monkey job again, and stuffed another bazillion envelopes. dude, the job seriously makes me dizzy...it is kind of weird. i kill the time with my ipod and everything seems so much better that way. then i went home and made dinner and went to my other job to teach violin. last night we were supposed to meet up with our group of girls and talk and share about everything. we do this once i week it is kinda like an accountability group. we ususally meet at starbucks on wednesday evenings for a couple hours. well, half the group couldn't come so me and michaela decided to hit up Heroes, a great bar/restaurant. the food was great, the beer was great, and fellowship was great. it was a good way to end the evening. then i gave my mom a call to wish happy birthday and catch up with her. then i came home and crashed...messed around online for a bit watched the ending of friends. saw something that made me really sad on the computer so i shut off the tv and closed my computer and went to bed. i shed a few tears that never seemed to flow for years until about well, exactly a month ago. then i fell asleep.

well, maybe i will enlighten you about those tears on another post sometime in the future. yipee.